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And She was

When the Maiden came to life, she simply awoke, as if she had always been. A young adult, barely out of adolescence (physically), but a child who knew nothing. The first sensation she felt was beauty, as she looked around her. Yes, there was beauty everywhere. The sun was warm on her body, and the blue of the sky was a reflection of the vastness of the moment she was living inside her.

The sound of insects flying around was soothing, as she awoke from what seemed like a forever dream. She did not have the sensation that she was being born. More like she had always existed. Has she will learn later on, the feeling was true, as nothing is ever created in this universe that wasn’t existing already, in another form. She felt heavy, as she slowly got up. But she knew what she had to do – what she was capable of. It had been implanted in her by the Beings, who had created her.

She didn’t know it at the time, but her and the man she would soon discover at her side, were but an experiment for the Beings, who were looking to create something they could control. Maybe they did it out of boredom, but I know that they believed it was their role and nature to rule. They came to the conclusion, without me, of course, that they came to exist when the Universe started to expand, simply so they could give sense to something that existed without rules, in the first place.

I cannot fully explain it either, since I was already living on earth when they took the decision of creating these humans. But if you ask me, I always knew they were “control freaks.” That is why I left them, to come and live on earth by myself, as I mentioned before. I had dreams of liberty and discoveries, while they spoke of order and restructuration. There was nothing that could keep me tied to the others. They never did forgive me for leaving, though. They believed we were meant to stay together. But Beings do no fight between each other; the concept simply does not exist… and so, they never came for me, and I never did so either.

But no matter the why or the how, The Maiden did find herself on earth, where she woke up to a world of pure marvels. Once she had risen on her feet, she was attracted by something reflecting light, not too far in the distance, directly in front of her. I probably should have seen this as a sign, the fact that she was already attracted by light, from the moment she woke up.

I came upon her as I was roaming the grounds, as I did every day, taking the time to discover something new, every chance I got. Evolution on earth was still fascinating to me, even after the billions of years I had spent there. I never got bored, after all this time, of simply looking for new elements that I still hadn’t noticed, on earth.

As she started heading towards what was a lake, I was already at my daily search for anything new. To be honest, I always thought that one day, once I would have figured out enough about this world, I would go and discover other ones. But in truth, I always found something that kept me grounded to this planet and I never once thought it was time to go. Had I known what was bound to happen next, I might have taken flight before. But then again: no.

I felt the wind slightly change direction as she took her first steps. No one else, not even a butterfly could have felt that change happened. But I did, because I could sense the smallest modifications happening around me. As I directed my attention towards this new “event,” she came into view. My essence suddenly felt different. I understood right away that my existence had suddenly changed, but I had no idea why it was so. I did not feel scared, more surprised about it. Yet that wasn’t the most peculiar sensation that I felt, right at that moment. This world I had loved so much, for so long, suddenly felt to me like one big danger. Not for me, but for her.

I had no idea at the time what that sensation was, but now I know: It was responsibility. The illogical conviction that I had to protect her. She also felt something was happening, right at that moment. And the effect was to lead her forward, as she felt her “destination” was near. A strange concept for someone with no knowledge of even where she was, but real, nonetheless.

Each step forward made her heart beat faster. Was it the reflection of the sun reflecting on the soothing undulation of the water of the lake that made her feel this way? She did not know. All she knew, in that instant, was that she wanted to go into it; to melt with it. She was coming nearer and nearer still, when suddenly something grabbed her wrist form behind, stopping her dead in her track.

The calmness she had felt, as she walked towards the light, immediately turned into fear. The pressure on her skin, the urgency she felt in it, and the loss of her own free-will, turned her heart into glass. She was helpless and the fear inside her, made her wish she hadn’t awakened from the eternal dream that she came out from, only minutes ago. She saw his shadow first, as the sun was behind them. It seemed immense and overpowering. She felt something warm running down her leg, but did not want to look, afraid of what would happen next.

As he passed her, and she saw him entirely, from the side, she became a bit calmer, as if his body, which seemed similar to hers was a comforting factor. However, when he turned his face towards her, the look in his eyes made her understood in a millisecond, that she would never again be free. He was in control, or so his eyes showed. He was bigger than her, and it seemed to suffice in the balance of power.

He looked at her, and then in a brusque gesture, indicated that she was not to move forward anymore. When he was convinced that she would stay in place, he started moving towards the lake warily, looking left and right as he did so, as if somebody else or something was watching him. He threaded carefully, towards the sand that surrounded the water. Just when he was about to touch the surface of the lake, he saw his reflection in the water, and after jumping back, afraid of a potential attack from this “other” individual, he quickly understood that he was actually seeing his own face. And he liked it so much, that he couldn’t keep his eyes away from it. It even brought him to smile, for the first time.

While vanity and pride were taking over him, the Maiden turned her head slightly to the left, to discover “me.” Though there was nothing there, somehow, she could feel my presence; something that wanted to protect her. I couldn’t deny that she was looking straight in my direction.

That depth she had inside her eyes. That way she could stare at me for seconds, minutes, which would one day turn into hours… I was mesmerized by such immensity, locked inside a living thing. And yet, I felt desperate… Yes, she was looking towards me. But in truth, she was looking right through me. For the first time, I did not want to be “essence” anymore. And although I knew, after living such a long time on earth, that everything that lived eventually died, I still wanted to leave this ever-lasting life, just for a moment of “eternity” with her.